Our third oldest granddaughter, Chistina, at the Youth Conf.
Janet and I went to the ASI National Convention in Phoenix. Our booth area was busier this year than I have seen it in a long time. My wife and Deniece did a great job putting the booth together. What you see above is only half of what the booth was at ASI. This picture was taken in Spokane, at the Youth Conf.
I wish I had more time to write a true blog. (A true blog, to me, is the expression of an opinion or some research on any given topic.) For sure, I am wonderfully or terribly opinionated and I could probably write on almost any topic, but time is the problem. So, I end up just sharing what is happening in my uneventful little life. Sorry! There is a ton I'd love to share with you. Someday I'll retire and do nothing but blog around. (Sounds blah, doesn't it?)
Anyway, what's new in my little life?
Oh, nothing! Well, that isn't completely so. I did get to chair the OCI board at ASI. That was pleasant. While there, I made an important life decision. I chose to begin transitioning out of being Eden Valley President over the next year. I don't know whether it is wise to announce that decision so early, but by the same token, we can't start looking for the next lucky President so quietly as to keep everyone in the dark. People need to get use to the idea.
The reaction is mixed
Some applaud the decision. They feel I shouldn't be separated so much from my wife. True, but I believe the Lord led in it. Others try to persuade me to remain, intimating that our best years may be just ahead of us. Possibly, but I've been praying for a long time. I believe my leaving will be a relief to some people. Don't cheer too soon, however, I may be at EVI for another whole year if we don't find the Great Reliever before then.
There are several reasons to move on:
My wife certainly is a big factor. Interestingly, I would have thought that this would be great news for her. It is, I think, but she is practical enough and love me enough to worry about my future in Africa. I appreciate her for that. She knows that I like being involved with the American ministries. I also like traveling the world preaching God's word. I will probably lose all of that by moving to Africa. There is a sense that going to Janet's project is like sinking into obscurity. Not to worry, I have no secret or open ambitions. Obscurity might just be a great sabbatical until I transition from dung to dust. (joke.) Hey, I might just write the book everyone has been encouraging me to write. That would be good, wouldn't it?
Secondly, God intended for His institutions to be instruments in His hands for the salvation of many souls. Institutions are theoretical more efficient than everyone doing their best singly. But institutions go thru' cycles. They can be powerful, or they can deteriorate into battlefields. Every few years, it seems they face upheaval. The Lord allows all hell to break loose on a place for the purpose of cleaning house. The struggles that lead up to the purge is very hard on the leader, especially if the leader isn't super strong to begin with.
Thirdly, I think I am not very pretentious. What you see is what you get, I think. (I'm not very good at self-judgment, either.) I guess I could wish to be a strong choleric, but I am not, and I don't even want to try to play the part. I may be too phlegmatic in this respect, but I pretty well accept myself as I am. Can you imagine being comfortable in this skin? I am. Well, I am when I am not failing so miserably or stressed out by different factions wanting me to rule in their favor. When I see I am not able to do a good job, I admit it, and gladly move over. It is time, I am not doing a good job.
Fourthly, I am just plain tired. If I was choleric enough, I would simply choose where I want to go and only take those who agree to go with me on my terms. I am too relational. I can't please everyone and in the end I will hurt everyone. That is reason enough to move on. Besides, it is time for a rest, like it or not.
I plan to close the retirement center next month. That will leave EVI with an excess of two, three or more staff. Who will I have to ask to vacate? I know that I wield the greatest influence around here, but I am not good at using power. I'd rather submit than to have others submit to me. Weird, eh?
Ok, you've got the scoop. Don't say I never talk to you. The Preacher.
Hi Dad,
ReplyDeleteI hope you are doing all right! You sound a bit discouraged and hard on yourself as a leader. You've always done a great job and people have appreciated you wherever you have been. I do hope that moving to Africa does not throw you into obscurity, however, I do know that it is not exactly your cup of tea. Mom will appreciate having you around at least for a while. Africa is definately where I want to be but not my husband so we are often put in places where we have to wait.
I'll be praying for the Lord to guide you and give you reassurance as to where he would like you to be and what he wants you to do.
Love you lots.
Julie
I think change is a great thing. Looking forward to reading your book. A year in Africa might be just the time you need to write it, if mom lets you have the time, that is :-)
ReplyDeleteWell, the gene theory must be true. In describing your frustration with leadership you describe me to a T. I think you are harder on yourself than you need to be, but I completely understand the feelings. Man, if I never had to deal with other's feelings and opinions life would be a piece of cake! I just want everybody to be happy and trying to please people gets me tied up in knots. I struggle to say "no". I get in trouble for being lenient. If I didn't love the kids and know that God gave me this job I would be tempted to walk away and let someone else figure it out -- but without a doubt the whole thing would die immediately. So, here I go... with a nice migraine to start off the year.
Frank Frank Frank - as i remember ---- well your girls have told you - you are so hard on yourself - and yes i would love to read a book written by yourself - you are so blessed and the Lord uses you in ways that you will never acknowledge as you are humbled - Janet will enjoy having her lover near her.
ReplyDeleteMay the Lord continue to bless you and Janet in all your works. I know i am a blessed person and a better person because of you and Janet in my youth. Thank you - Love Ms Jo
Hello Pastor Fournier. Recently I saw a sermon video you preached called "the power of suggestion" is there a way for me to get and audio or video copy of this? You mentioned it was to speak to someone, it definately spoke to me. I am in a courtship with someone who everyone describes as a godly man and they tell me "don't let him go". But when we are having conversations sometimes he has gotten mad and said to me "your pathetic" or "get away from me" or that I don't know how to communicate or have adult emotions. He has told me I need to be able to admit that I am a failure as a person. For a very long time I have thought there is something wrong with me because everyone else says how good a man he is; I still am wondering what have I done wrong that he would say these things and more? The Lord has been speaking to me through 3ABN and you and other avenues on this very topic. Thank you - my email is jfarmer47@hotmail.com. Thanks again. Julie
ReplyDeletePaator Fournier - I don't have any other way to reach you, so I looked onthe internet and found your blog. Would you also be able to have this conversation remain between us as confidential - if it is possible. I thank you again.
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